I think the wolfgan link is interesting -the idea that everything which is complex may derive from something which is very simple is fascinating. I think it is relevant to our work and we may want to exploit in our workk, especially in the theme of transformations or metmorphoses.

I think our interest in black holes and cosmos in general is is not so much in the physical aspect but how it relates to the psychological/ philosophical .

Watching these programs on the bbc we realise even more than before that we are tiny minute specs, like little pieces of dust, probably entirely here by chance. We are drawn to the fact that perhaps we are completely unimportant and probably even superflous. We question our existence and also the existence of God. Personally it draws me away from the belief that there is one, this is quite scarry, because it takes away the idea away that I was created with some sort of mission, that I am especially here to fullfil some sort of task.

I just finished a book called nause. It is just like you say joc, everything that one reads seems to relate to the lines of thought going through the head. Anyway, It is about the feeling of a guy who suddenly has this realisation that we are hiding from the truth of what it really means to be in this world.

He says people give themselves false reasons and lead petite bourgouise lives because the feeling of why we exist is frightening. The emptynes, the vastness, the feeling that we are just here by chance only here existing and nothing more is frightening.

He started to analyse how life is build up in moments and whether one moment ever exists in itself. It is very much a study into time, space and what makes us who we are.

And yet the vast emptyness and nothingness also creates a space in which we are free. It is a different freedom than we usually think about because it can be quite unpleasant.

It is linked to the idea that nothing is predestined, in other words no god. To him life comes without any meaning and yet it is up to us to create one. It is why we always have to question and requestion everything and not just go along with what happens or simply operate as part of a larger system.

I have no idea if i understoof much of that book and it doesn’t really matter. But i thnk interesting is how studies of physics and science and psychological aspects are more and more being linked up to say similar things. Obviuously these are no revolutionary ideas but I but I have been thinking baout it quite a lot lately. And somehow I feel we are feeling the same things, perhaps in different ways though.

Having said all this I also think that perhaps we are searching too far in reference to testbed. We want to express everything in one piece of work and may get a bit lost on the way. We have to be careful not to think too much and try and think in concrete ideas.